The confusion

I got an invitation from Lady Catherine to come around because she is bored and she tried to convince me to stay at Charlotte's house for a longer visit. When I do not except she makes a big deal about how I needs a servant to accompany me on my trip home. I've been re-reading Darcy's letter and now it is stuck in my head. I'm so confused on my true feelings for Dacry. Sometimes I hate him and other timees I feel something for him and I may actually be regretting my decision. I want to tell Jane about Darcy but I don't want to upset her anymore then I already have.